how to surf a shame spiral


Hi y’all! Today the online magazine Elephant Journal published another piece of mine. I’ll share the first part of it here then click the link to continue reading. I hope you like it! After my summer hiatus of healing, I’ve begun writing again. 🙂


How to Surf a Shame Spiral

My husband and I fell into our own respective numbers games the other day.

When I say “game,” what I really mean to say is “cesspool.”

At least ours were right next to each other—double wide cesspools. We weren’t alone in our attempts to drown.

Mine involved taking a step I’d not taken in months. I don’t know what possessed me to attempt this unplanned risk, other than a small moment of cockiness that morning combined with a wave of curiosity.

I stepped on the scale.

It was not pretty, I’ll just leave it at that.

My husband also opened a world he’d been avoiding for less time but still avoiding nonetheless. He opened his online bank account.

Being the intuitive that he is, he knew immediately something was wrong with me.

“Oh I’m fine,” I replied covering up my rapidly swirling shame spiral.

My husband talks to himself during times of stress so his vortex was more visible, more unavoidable.

I knew something was wrong with him too.

Continue reading here….

Thanks for taking the time to read and hope you all are having a great summer!