Sorry guys for the weird posting lately. I’m trying to navigate an upgrade on this site (not really working in terms of videos which was the whole reason I did it) and my new Android phone and new apps. Technology is not my friend these days. My mind is spinning from it all.
I was sick all day yesterday–truly a body/mind/spirit crashdown. That just happens sometimes. I came home from exercising and visiting Alfonse briefly and put my pajamas on, did one load of laundry and stayed down all day and evening. I feel slightly better today but still gonna take it easy. Sometimes these cave dwelling periods signal a big transformation is on the horizon.
I was in my bedroom yesterday morning and finally broke down in long held tears. Tears for God knows what, just things bottled up inside. It was good to let them go. I started praying for a sign of relief and right after that heard 3 dings on my phone. I’d received 3 text messages from someone I’d been waiting to hear back from. Someone very dear to my heart who I share a deep bond with who I’d wondered if our paths had uncrossed. I’d reached out last week and not heard back so the timing was impeccable. He said he was just about to apologize for taking so long to get back to me right when I’d replied about how his text was an answered prayer. I have tears now remembering the beauty of that moment.
I think we all need to know we’re not alone. I find myself a person who provides that for others easily. I bond easily and quickly with people and provide a place of belonging. But much like funny man Robin Williams plagued with depression, I at times feel very lonely myself. Go figure. Yesterday was just one of those days.
When I was visiting Alfonse (his Dr. had texted me saying he wasn’t doing well so I went over to find him telling me “Kathy I’m feeling good. I’m happy” after having just returned from getting a haircut to prepare for his audition) we picked out his outfit to wear tonite finding he needed to launder some of it and I had him sing for me like always. I made this video which I hope goes through this time–having a devil of a time getting videos uploaded here from my phone now.
Please enjoy this and tonite 6pm MST please offer up a prayer of support for my dear brother. This, though, is a total win/win situation as he knows even if he doesn’t get in to the chorus this round, he will be starting a life of volunteerism with them. It’s all good and he’s totally ok with whichever way it goes. Life will be changing for both of us tonite, I can feel it. It’s time.
for some reason it’s coming out squished but at least you can hear it